I have broken my own heart "myself and one hell of a country singer has been working on this and it will be out for everyone to hear soon: EXCITED

I have broken my own heart

leaving myself bruised and torn

clinging to the gates of hell with bloodied fingers

begging for the dark to let me join

I have lain restless nights in this lonesome bed

with a bottle of southern comfort

resting softly in my hand.

All of my energy has been wasted away

for the sun has risen and I have not slept in days.

What I wouldn't have given

 if you had opened your eyes,

what I wouldn't have lost if mine had not been

blinded by your country loving lies.

Anticipating what I knew was not worth the battle,

I gave all that I had and made up what I didn't.

I believed in the fairy tales

where dreams were forbidden,

another drink of this poison,  maybe I'll forget

I have broken my own heart

leaving myself bruised and torn

clinging to the gates of hell with bloodied fingers

begging for the dark to let me join

Yea I have broken my own heart with

every ounce of will that I could muster.

I have paced these floors screaming

at god for the answers that he would not share.

Yea I have broken my heart and done all that I could,

I made sure that the one I loved

would never step near me anymore.

I ran into the dark looking for my own way,

I came out stronger no longer

 begging to hear your name.

I have broken my own heart

leaving myself bruised and torn

clinging to the gates of hell with bloodied fingers

begging for the dark to let me join.

I have broken my own heart believing

I could never move on.

I found the love of my life in the corner of these hills.