Thursday, November 16, 2017

Wishful Wishes

I wish the clouds would clear
and the sky would part
I want to scream in anguish
before the last of me falls apart

I wish the clouds would clear
and the sky would part
I want to tell you that it was no bother
speak from the bottom of your heart for eternity

I wish the clouds would clear
and the sky would part
I want you to open your eyes
and see all of us that wanted you to stay

I wish the clouds would clear
and the sky would part
I want to know what the breaking point was
and comfort you through your tears

I wish the clouds would clear
and the sky would part
I want to know that you are okay
even if we are not

I wish for these things
that can never be
I hope when my time comes
your face is one of the first that I see!

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Unsettled

Reality can sometimes be so unsettling,
the best of us can walk away.
Lost in a world that they can no longer stay,
grief-stricken so deeply that those closest can not even see.

Left here to grieve,
not understanding how such a smile
can forever be erased.
Left to ask yourself,
was there anything that could have been done
knowing down deep that this was game over.

Looking out the window
the sun is not in site
there is a battle between good and bad
that we are not a part of

Recalling memories
laughs and hey, how is your day
keep playing circles in your mind
thoughts are so deep that you can hear them
in the voice that they portray

Wishing that time could go back
but knowing for one it was at a standstill.
Wishing the grief was not so raw
knowing it will be around for the long haul.

Begging for this nightmare to come to an end
knowing that is just a dream that can be hoped for
nothing can bring back what has been lost
nothing can ease the pain of losing such a man.

Dropping to your knees
praying that God is really a forgiving God
Hoping that he knows
that the man who left,
was not the man who for so long stayed!


 

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Ghost

Chasing ghosts among the lost!
granting sanction,
that only I bear upon my shoulders!

Retrieving an image,
that once was only an ambition!
Picking myself up,
only to fall again!

Looking at a silhouette
dimmed by a fogged mirror.
Touching a face with the trickle of a hand,
that was lost to the beholder.

Gracefully walking backwards,
fearing the patches will come unbound.
Keeping the mind busy,
in fear it will find insanity once again.

Running away from the quicksand,
that takes all as its own.
Holding on to a limb,
that the storm has shredded in its fiery.

Determined to stay strong,
where all is lost among the weak!
Reality sparks a glimmer of thought,
upon the ghost, all is not lost!

Monday, October 23, 2017

His possession

He possesses my heart
easily taken from me
with two fist clenched tightly.

He has the ability to feel every beat!
Every skip that it may take restlessly
in the embrace of his arms.

He has the strength to fade away
as all past memories are best forgotten.
His eyes are like looking into a mirror
of the person that I have always dreamt.

He has the power to change life
as it once was, unknowingly giving
up treasures just to lay in his embrace.

He has the ability to crush it,
like it had never existed.
He has the strength
to walk away
as if he never possessed it at all.

went to his concert just for this song, found out that I love everything he sings


Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Steps back

Let me take a step back
maybe I will figure this out
maybe this battered soul will find redemption
or at least see things more clearer.

No one is perfect
no one is at fault for all of their downfalls
some though use life as
an excuse to not  live at all.

What have we come to?
When will we stand up and defend ourselves
without fearing the invisible images
that are only in our minds and point of views.

My mind is blank
there is nothing left to dream of
nothing seems to fall into place
so why dream about useless things?

Let me take a step back
maybe I will figure this out
or maybe I will just walk away
giving up all that I am or could ever have.