Giving up is never an option

 I find that life has not really been mine. I know that I cannot be the only one who feels out of place in their lives! Do you know that feeling when you have so many plans but none of them come to pass? You are so worried about the person beside you or the ones who you know will be ringing your phone at their slightest inconvenience. Every day you tell yourself that you are going to do this or that, but you are so mentally drained that you can only sit in what you hope could be silence. The walls are deafening but yet that is what you seek! The darker, the better because that is where your mind resides!

We find ourselves at the realm of nonsense that we can only control in the bleakness of giving up. Let's not do what our hearts desire when it is not that of another's mindset. The struggle is real when you know what can be accomplished if you could only live in the life that you want, need and crave. We want what we cannot have because in order to have what we want we would have to fight a battle that we may not win. It is all part of that fear that we see clinging to the darkness on the foggiest of nights.

Sometimes we learn who we are later in life and the knowledge of what we want is harder to achieve. Do we give up or do we just keep pushing? No one wants to fail at life but maybe life has failed us! Maybe, just maybe.. there is so much more out there that we do not even know is headed our way. They say that life is what we make it but that is not entirely true is it? Not everyone has been able to fight themselves out of the reality of what was given to them to work with. However, if we give up there is no other option to except but failure. 

             ~A NEW BEGINNING IS BETTER THAN AN OLD ENDING~  

Reflections of today's world

My country has left me confused with anger and loathing that my reflection is not someone that I recognize any longer. With every passing day I reflect on new events and wonder how we came to the spot that we are in now. What road did we take that gave us permission to hate and spread misinformation that could harm others? When will it stop? When will we remember who we are and that all of us came from somewhere else? We had a beginning; our ancestors came from somewhere else unless we are indigenous "Native Americans"! 

I faulter in my steps and forget that hate is not the way! I want to hate those that are full of hate, yet that is not the way because two wrongs do not make a right. We cannot allow ourselves to become those that we feel contempt for. So, what do we feel for those who have lost their way and allowed hate to take over their hearts? What do we feel for those that we love or care about when we know what lies in their hearts and minds? The confusion has me at a standstill when I reflect on my thoughts that are at times overpowered by dread and distain. 

So, what is the answer? Are you lost in a world of confusion? Can we get back on track or are we the next country that will fall as others think they are helping us rise? Truth of what lies within can be hard to except but it is needed to be who we were meant to be. We need to look at our reflection from within, not the mirror on the wall.