Unsettled

Reality can sometimes be so unsettling,
the best of us can walk away.
Lost in a world that they can no longer stay,
grief-stricken so deeply that those closest can not even see.

Left here to grieve,
not understanding how such a smile
can forever be erased.
Left to ask yourself,
was there anything that could have been done
knowing down deep that this was game over.

Looking out the window
the sun is not in site
there is a battle between good and bad
that we are not a part of

Recalling memories
laughs and hey, how is your day
keep playing circles in your mind
thoughts are so deep that you can hear them
in the voice that they portray

Wishing that time could go back
but knowing for one it was at a standstill.
Wishing the grief was not so raw
knowing it will be around for the long haul.

Begging for this nightmare to come to an end
knowing that is just a dream that can be hoped for
nothing can bring back what has been lost
nothing can ease the pain of losing such a man.

Dropping to your knees
praying that God is really a forgiving God
Hoping that he knows
that the man who left,
was not the man who for so long stayed!