Confused thoughts

My thoughts torment my
mind as I feel torn between
happiness and pain.I can
taste my tears where my
smile wants to play,trying
to push the depression away.

I get lost in my footsteps,
I only see myself in the
shadow that strays on these
four walls that keep me trapped
among the desperation that I
feel in my heart.I am literally
falling apart!

I feel distant from everyone
around me,not them! It is just
me,my heart blank as it is unable
to see what stands right in front
of me.I am walking away from my own
destiny,the light that shines is
too dark now for me to even see.

My future holds so much for me
but yet so little can be seen.
My words with hidden meanings
that even to me can go un-heard
with no meaning at all from the
seat I have taken,backwards I am
falling.

My confusion has taken a hold of
me once again, no wounds can be
found but yet I am in so much
uncalled for pain.No one to blame
but a man named depression that
finds his way once again knocking
at my door.

Happy,sad, tears in my eyes but
yet my heart has never felt so
loved.No energy to be found but
my mind cannot stop jumping up
and down,depression sometimes
fits me like a glove.My life it
finds a way to run!