Lies to discover

I put up smiles to hide my tears,
I am not the woman anymore that
I had fought to be for so many years.

I have felt pain like no other, a life that
I thought in time would be so much more,
a life better, a life I thought was out there
still to discover.

I wish for death to take me away, under the
tides is where I wish my body could rest for
eternity. The peacefulness I feel hearing the
waves hit shore, makes it seem like there should
be so much more.

My life has thrown sand pebbles my way, never
to escape my fears and I fake a laugh, I fake a
smile the whole time dying inside. I look at your
picture and remember our lives, the ones we lead
before all of your lies.

I loved you with my complete heart and soul, just
to be made to feel like I was such a fool what more
could I of done? what could I of said? to make you
never leave and forever be my man.

I play a fiddle to my heart, I try to believe there is
a reason we are apart..but at the end of the day
when I look at your picture sitting here beside me
I wish a thousand deaths would just take me away.

These tears I try to disguise is made up of nothing
but happy smiling lies, in this we both are true I can
live a life of nothing more than saddened untruths.
I will walk my days in a unforgiving daze but know
this my love, my heart is with you and there it will
always stay!!