Lost treasuries

I have proven it to myself that
within me you no longer dwell.
My heart has released the sound
of your heartbeat and in my mind
you can no longer be found!

There are times still though that
in my thoughts that roam backwards
you can be found,not for the love
that I once treasured but for the
answers that was never for me put
down,answered!

I play our song still to this day
and I am surprised that it no longer
brings me to heartaches and tears,
my heart now unafraid!I remember the
good memories now with the bad,the
happiness that we shared and then
the end that left me frazzled with
despair.

You will never leave my souls memory
completely,but now I know your were
never meant to be the one who would
be there to complete me!You are now
turning into a lost memory!

I still think of long ago days,the
stories that we shared and the love
that at one time you gave.The comfort
we found when in each others arms,the
stars that shown bright when we were
lost in each others gaze.

You hold my hearts memory but you never
again will be the one who holds me!I
have found a love true to his word,my
heart,body and mind he grips with stead
fast hands,the protector of my world!

He loves me for who I am,I hide no
longer waiting for the right time to
be handed down,no longer to be played
with like a clown.I take away with me
a past of love and misery,I move forward
with the man that was truly made for
only me! I am pleasantly free to live
my life of hopes and dreams,with him
I feel like I was his lost treasury!

Childhood beliefs

As a child I expressed my
feelings through paper and
pen,the world has changed
so much it is now a keyboard
and screen to entertain me.

As a child I believed in
fairy tales,the beautiful
girl being rescued by the
dashing prince on a steed.

Now that I am a woman I see
things for what they really
are,men come also with hearts
not just amour,some need saved
in return,their souls to yearn!

As a child I could not wait
for the summers rain,so many
puddles to find and prance in,
shoes to dry when it was time
to go in.

I still wait for that summers
rain as an adult,not to prance
in puddles,but to dance as the
world is cleaned again from the
rain that is pouring down on me.

Childhood dreams and wonderment's
to change as the time passes me
slowly by,as an adult I see the
world through grown up eyes!

Beauty and pain,tears in the rain,
dashing princes that need their
own fairy tale come true,through
the eyes of a woman my mind has
been renewed.

A left alone child

Why do you let that child in your
home?She has taught your own so
much wrong!That is why she has
been left alone.

Why do you risk this theft in the
night? She deserves nothing in life!
That is why she has been left alone!

Don't let her in,run her off,she is
to full of sin.She cannot be helped!
That is why she has been left alone!

Look at her father,look at her mother!
and have you ever meant any of her sinful
brothers?That is why she has been left
alone!

She deserves to be no more than what
she has been given,her life was in the
stars already written!That is why she
has been left alone!

Why do I let her in my home?Why do I
feed the child who does not even have
a crumb?Why do I tell her I love her
just as much as my own?Why do I risk
losing everything that I own?

Because she was left alone!I have been
in her footsteps,I was left alone!I never
knew what love was until fourteen years
old, that is why I will not leave her
alone!

That is what love really means,that is
what I learned when I was seen,for the
child that had always been left alone
only dream of what love could be,if
felt for me!

Why does she walk through my door at
all hours of a night?why do I feed a
child who has never been treated right?
She was left alone,with no real home!

All of gods children

I think of God and what his plans are
for us, I do not cross the threshold
like I done years ago but our savoir
is always in my heart where he belongs.

I look around me at people running
around believing they are better than
those who read their bible only at home,
I wonder then where they are when so many
children go without so much as even any
kind of hope.

No love, No true home,just the streets
to roam.Crying out for help,turned away
without so much as a second glance.They
beg for love,something so easily to give!
They are not even worth any of this,what
God preached so powerfully for us to give!

Call them bad,they are just sad!Tell them
they are not any good,they just want to be
understood!Turn your backs on them,they are
driven to sin!Turn your eyes from them and
pretend you do not see,they are stealing and
begging because they just want to eat!

We will now turn our backs on the children
God so loved!Because they are not any longer
worth the blood his son spilled for us!We will
let them wander on the streets begging to eat
and a warm place to sleep as we talk about
their bad seed!because we are to blind to see,
they are dependent only on you on me!

Dreams to come true

You are all that I have ever
dreamed, I have been looking
for the perfect one to fit me
for so very long I had almost
given up.And there you were!

I was blinded at first,my fear
of feeling anything was holding
me forever back!I opened my eyes
and this I will never regret!

My pulse runs high on the mere
thought of you taking me in your
arms,holding me tenderly from harm.
A tear is falling from my eyes,just
these words to you makes me feel
so very alive.

A dream to come true when the world
felt like there was nothing left for
me but lonesomeness and a heart full
of wishes. The emptiness I had felt
has finally been pleasantly filled
with your sweet loving kisses.

No one could ever take your place!
Your smile and face are all I want
to see,your arms are all that I want
and need to feel alive and really me.

My dreams have finally come true!My
heart, mind and body only belongs to
you!!

A perfect fit

My eyes are opened to a perfect
love affair,life seemed to elude
me before,leaving me in wonderment
of happy couples walking hand in
hand.You could feel their love
in the air!A perfect fit!

A smile has crept on my face that
has not been erased for so long now,
he makes me feel like I am a part
of him.A perfect fit!

My heart pitter patters at the
mere thought of him,knowing I am
the one he wants to love and share
his life's dreams with.A perfect fit!

He creeps into my sleep of a night,
my nightmares have finally taken a
flight where it belongs,in the past
to shallowly fall.A perfect fit!

Life has opened a door that has forever
been closed in my face,our love will
become stronger through out all of our
days.His face is all that I see,forever
loving him and all that he has shown me.
A perfect fit!

A perfect fit of hearts and minds,not
everything needs to be agreed upon.love
is in the air,my life no longer one of
despair and tears,no longer filled with
endless fears.A perfect fit!

She can just vividly feel that impression that was left on her heart so very long ago. Her life was never the kind you would call excitedly home about, to much heartache and tears blinded her nights and no affection to find in her days. She walked a life of negativity believing that the fairy tales that she heard in her younger days were just silly words to be written by an author who never lived in the real world, loneliness and turmoil. She watched as couples would walk by her, thinking how do they do it, faking such beautiful smiles. No positives were to be found in her life, and nothing could ever hide the tears her heart cried! Life was merely nothing more but a insufferable game to be played, no winners in sight, no love to be given right. She wakes now from all that was and sees all that can be, happiness is found when looking through eyes that really want to see. Love can tread on her heart, Fairy tales do come true, and it all started with the one who treated her like she was more than a hopeless fool. I love you hunni ♥ the only tears that fall now from my eyes are the ones of happiness and security!!

One and only me ( help to stop bulling in your schools )

I walk these halls feeling
the eyes on me, here they
come again ready to tease.

My grades get made fun of,
I am to smart to be a part
of the crowd.No one wants
me around!

My smile reaches my eyes,
why is it that my weight
is all that they can see?
The real me not found!

I go to church because I
love my lord,he is the one
who let me join the world.
I get made fun of though for
being a christian girl!

I wonder why we all cannot
just get along,it seems like
even the adults are bullies
and try to hurt the small.

From a child's eyes all that
I can see is torment and misery.
Wars to take place,another's
heart to break.Another life at
stake!

I will go to school now and be
the best that I can be and hope
this time you will look at me
with your heart and not what you
want your eyes to see.

I can only be myself and that is
all that I can be! If you give me
a chance you will see that I am the
perfect mold of me!

I miss the good ol days

There's not much I can really say about
the music we hear on the radio today.I
am a country girl all the way, but even
the new hank has lost his way.

I want to hear about the love of younger
days, Johnny and June made us laugh when
they sang times a wasting,she sure did make
him walk the line.

Patsy cline and Loretta Lynn everyone thought
they hated each other but they were the best
of friends singing their pure country hearts
away,nothing like these girls today.

I can remember when Garth loved to sing,but that
was before Trisha stoled him away,at home he twiddles
his thumbs looking at his guitar he is no longer
allowed to play.What a shameless waste!

Paycheck playing old violin still gets me today,his
words fall true for so many that sits in depression
everyday.Fancy was one of my favorites,I miss the
Reba who sang of true heartbreak and not of all the
mistakes that women make.

I miss all of the true country stars who has now stood
aside to let a bunch of fakes take their places,country
music is doomed and will never be the same.

A lovers lullaby

Hold me in your arms and never let me go,
turn the music on and dance with me pulled
real close.Your chin to lay on the top of my
head as my face is nestled into your chest.

Our hearts beating in the perfect rhythm,
the song we listen to leaving our minds wide
open.Dance with me just a little bit closer,let
me feel the words that are being spoken.

A tender look up at your face, reminds me
why I wanted to dance in your embrace.
The song fades away into the night,but we
still dance to the words that fit us so right.
A lovers lullaby!!!

imperfectly perfect

We are imperfect for each other!
We really are nothing alike at all
but his arms are all I want to feel
around me until the mornings dawn.

He can watch television as I listen
to the country music,his face though
is the one I will see in the words
of that beautiful love song.

He can drive his big truck on full
blast and I cannot drive a lick at
all but his lips are the best that
I have ever felt.

We are not alike at all,if you think
about it we are imperfect together by
far,but he is the holder of my heart.
I never thought I would find this in
my lifetime,but happiness is now truly
mine.

We are imperfectly perfect together!!!

Tic tock, writers block

Tic tock I watch the clock,I am so
tired but yet my mind won't stop!

What do I want to say that has not
been written already on paper by my
pen.

Here I go again my mind to spin,it is
turning like a dryer on full speed,I
am so drained and my body is weak!

My head hurts like it never has before,
those words I want are somewhere stuck
behind a tightly closed off door.

My heart is racing as fast as my mind,
there are so many words that I wish to
find.

Give me a subject of your choice,I can
write about it the best that I can,but
yet it will not stop the words that has
yet to be found.

I am tired and I am weak,give me those
words that I seek!So I can finally rest
in peace!

Tic tock she looks at the clock!She just
may finally have writers block!!

Morning sun

She looks out her window as the sun gently touches the sky, the moon has started to drift away and it is harder now to see, behind the tress it now hides. The leaves have left long ago, now only to be touched with spots of snow that are melting away turning to water as it drops to the ground. She hears a songbird sign her good morning, at least she can believe he is doing so, warming her soul, touching her heart, believing in this moment the world is only hers to cherish and she relishes that thought for right now, the world is hers she will shout to the top of her lungs. She will tell the world that her dreams will come true, no one will knock them to the ground, I will pick them back up and tread on until they are all found!! You cannot tell me they are hopeless silly dreams, they keep me going when life is nothing more but broken hearts that keep you locked behind steel doors, crying on your wooden cold floors! These are my dreams, they are not yours to decide when I should give them up and throw them away, my life is not one of play, I have faith that you will believe in me one day. She calms now after her yelling has subsided, a weight has been lifted off of her chest, a smile comes to her face as she wonders ( had anyone listened? had anyone heard? do they now believe in her? ) She walks now from her window, the sun has now set in its cozy spot for the day. The song bird is gone now, he has flown to another window, if you listen you will hear him sing a song to you ,he is waiting for you to tell him your story now. Scream to the top of your lungs, get it out and into the open, this is your life and it will not leave you broken!! Believe in yourself, because lets face it world, if we don't know one else will!!!

Love can only be found when you are looking in the right places,,

There is a positive in every negative,,you just have to take the time to find it!!!

You always find what you were not looking for at just the right moment,,

Hearts at home

The softness of his voice telling
me endearing things in my ear leaves
me with a shiver coursing down my
already weakened spine.

A touch to my face as I look into
his eyes makes me say thank you
lord for so many nights spent alone
to cry.

His words of toughness trying to make
me not see, what is hidden within him
buried deep. He is as scared as me,we
had given into defeat.

His fingers intertwine mine sending
warmth through my body,never had I
felt so secure in just being me,for
anyone to see.

I sit patently waiting for it all to
blow up in my face,but he comes back
to me,always to put a true smile where
so many tears had left their traces.

My heart races at the thought of his
arms holding me so tightly,his face is
what I see when my mind finally lets me
sleep,only of him do I dream.

The feelings I have had to hold on to
for so very long has finally found the
one who I can love,making my heart feel
at home,no longer alone.

In a mans thoughts

He sits alone in his own thoughts
of long ago days when he could love
with his whole heart and never worry
about the cost of another heartache.

His mind is tantalized of finding
the right one who can fit in the
crook of his arm to love and fill
him with warmth and trust.

He tries to hide away and act like
he needs no one,hiding the fact that
his life has so many times been left
also in heartbreaking turmoil.

He is a man who has given up the
thought of finding anything more
than what he believes he deserves,
he believes his chances has faded
away like the candle that slowly
loses its flare.

He sits in a room day dreaming to
himself,is this the way his life
will forever be,keeping his heart
upon an un-noticed shelf.

His mind wanders as he drifts to
sleep,will he ever find the one
that he sees in his dreams.

Un-covered

There are words I want to say
but my heart keeps them all
locked up tight and at bay.

There are dreams I want to
live but I cannot let myself
once again be hurt,never to
forgive!

There are thoughts I want to
share but my mind won't let
me crack them open like an
peanut shell,left unprotected
and bare.

There are boulders I want to
move ,but if I do will there be
any use?

There are things in life I want
to find,but my heart is closed
off by these walls that seem to
high to climb.

There are so many things that
may never be found by me,my
life being one that not even I
wish to seek.

There are mysteries in life that
we all want to un-cover,these
are the things that will always
leave us alone to cower .

I feel you

I can feel him watching me through
the window of the screen.My heart
cries out still at times for the one
who tricked me into believing.

I have taken a vow to move on with
my life,But I will always miss the
words that to my ears sounded right.

I can feel his heart still today,it
is crying out begging me to forgive
him for all of my pain,mine to do the
same.

We could not make it work,but we will
always be the best friends that only
we could be.No one to really know the
secrets that we will always keep.

You are always in my heart and you will
be there until the world finally tares
are bond apart.I am sorry for all of your
pain,I no longer blame.

I forgive what you reeked down on me,
I know in your heart you are sorry just
like me.Live happily and dream your dreams,
you deserve nothing less than to achieve
everything that you were meant to be.

Goodbye