Heart pains

I would be lying if I said your love is
not the one I always wished to find,and
now that it is gone my life has left me
cold and blind.

Memories flood back to me of times we
felt so free,in your loving arms I knew
I did not have to be anything other than
the real me.

I still dream of the things we were meant
to be and all of the things we were always
excited about and wanted to see,torturing
memories.

I have heart pains that wont go away,they
leave me restless,tired and so very dreary.
My heart has been broken in a thousand little
pieces and my mind won't let me be at peace.

I ask myself so many times in the day what
could I of done to make him truly love me
and only me,my pain will never really be
seen my heart wanting to take its last beat.

My pillow to stay soaked in the tears that
I cry,all I want is the answer to why it is
always my heart that is to be denied.My pain
never means anything at all and I am always
the one to take the heartbreak fall.

I will sit here and wonder these things all
through my days,looking out the window the
season will never change,I will always feel
this unbearable pain,my heart never to feel
again.

I will sit here by candle lights always to
wonder what I had not done right to be the
one to see your beautiful face in the mornings
light.