Seeking memories

I cannot stop pacing, my mind is racing thinking of
days that I felt like my life was in a better place.

I walk out onto my porch and see the sky so many lite
up, beautiful colors of pinks and purples can be seen
behind the now leaf less trees.

I wonder is there really life beyond what the naked eye
can see,a life that can be lived for all of eternity.

Can your dreams really be found or is it just words
that keep your soul lifted off of the ground?

Lights can be seen glimmering from other houses and
I cannot help but wonder is their lives all that
they dreamt of and sought out.

I am told over and over to move on with my life but
I cannot stop thinking of the one who seemed so right,
his memories always controlling my life.

At moments like this I just want to forget what my
life has always seemed to give!

I want to dream dream big and laugh loud, forget
about everyone who has ever hurt my heart,I want
to leave that part of my life in the dark,restart!

Starting a new life seems so right at this moment
but there is so many things I cannot forget about
and leave behind.

When I close my eyes at night I know I am bound
to find the dreams I use to wish for,my eyes are
always to open those doors.

He is always to be found to me,in my dreams I
always seek out to find my memories,of the love
that has been lost to me.