Hopelessly awake

I toss and turn as I cry in my sleep, my body is
searching for the one who holds all of me.

I walk through my days as a shadow within myself,
my mind races as it screams out for help.

I am damaged goods at best, this life I live in has shown
me the only peace I will find is in death.

I speak a million words and still I am never heard, I cry a
thousand tears and yet I am still lingering here.

I pray for release, all I want is to leave this place that I dread,
this life I have grown to hate,my being I wish to dissipate,in my
mind this has always been my fate.

A dark shadow can be seen on my wall, a coldness has taken me
to hold. My eyes burn now with no rest,my heart is pumping frantically
inside of my chest.

Sleep is now taking over me but I will still have to suffer the pain in
my dreams. I will wake in the morning to a new day, where I will then
once again relive all of my pain.

My mind is going insane, I can only find him to blame, my life never to
be the same. I lay down now to play dead, I wish I could not hear these
words that always play on my mind.

I can run but from my mind I can never hide,The true me for now I will
disguise, my eyes are now burning with despise.His words were never
anything but hopeless lies!