Forgotten memories

I have forgiven the past that
left me alone in my own solitude
with a gratefulness of all that
I have learned on the tracks of
my life.

I sometimes am madder than hell
looking for revenge to make up
for the hurt I have received but
my heart is now built of the strength
I was to blind to see.

I still cry in the middle of the night
for lost family and dreams that I dreamt
of in my childhood.I have now grown into
an adult and nothing can bring back
the once trusting child,a woman now to
stand tall taking her place!

I can look backwards now knowing that
nothing was meant to be changed,the walk
of life made me into the woman that I
now am. Words of fear and depression have
bled through the pen I have taken to paper,
now my life is surrounded by the ones that
will not leave me alone in a solitude of
heartaches and despair.

I will forgive those that brought me so
many tears of dread,they will live their
life now without me dreaming of them through
the day.My eyes to never find them as they
stray into my past of pain.

I will no longer give them the pleasure of
knowing the pain that they have brought me,
they will find my revenge in the karma that
they surly one day will meet. I have achieved
a goal today,I left my past today nothing more
than a forgotten memory.