Tired

Tired of it all, ready to go to a place that pain is not heard of. Can't take this life of struggles never any peace to be had, just gloomy days to be seen ahead of me. So much drama, so many lies all I want to do is go under a cloak and hide from my life. People walking around smiles on their faces, wish I knew what the smiles were for. Never ending it seems this life I lead, to many people give me reasons to leave. Stomach in knots feeling like it could explode, Do I want to leave this earth or just get up and move. What do I need to prove anymore, nothing matters at all I just wish I could take a tumble out of this life I want to fall. Dealing with heartache that never goes away, a man who told me I was all he would ever need. Another man who won't go away, tired of seeing his drunk ass face, wish he would once again just go away. Hands shake and the tears start to roll, frustration is taking it's toll on me, god I just want to leave. When will it ever end? when will life just please end.