Intentional heartaches

So much lost in love and war. Words not meant to be said, lingering moments that are always there in the darkness that the night brings. Feverish days and saddened nights, remembering the times that everything always seemed alright. A blessing brought to you that you could never of dreamed, taken next by the one who said that could never be. Two people so alike would never live apart in this life. Watch as the sun sets in the corner of my eyes, another day that will slowly creep by. Night falls for another sleepless night, dreams of once was. Never wanting to see them as merely lovely lies that was so easily spilled from your lips, never caring of the hurt this would bring.

So long it took to dig myself out of a deep hole, never would I feel or trust another soul. Years of pain from life's priceless learning games. A devil I would of seemed, to be reborn but now with a already torn heart on my sleeve, one that you looked at in splendid mockery. Played me for a fool when you told me we were one of a kind, a couple no one could ever define. Two loving hearts that were made for each other, two minds that could not be hid from the other. Souls that were meant to be, the broken life I had was just leading me to him for eternity.

So much I believed, letting my heart ride on my sleeve. Never with open eyes would I see, the hurt that you always intended for me. It hurts and seems unfair that life would lead me here, to a man so cruel and waiting to see my tears as he hides his smile and cheers. Never to really feel the heart that loved him so, never to care as long as his life was what he called full. Goes on in a shattered life, goes on in a new direction hoping this time to find something true and right.