Love of my life

Two years almost and my heart has never felt so lost, I hate that you are still always on my mind and in my thoughts. Grabbing a hold of me to never let go, my heart racing wanting to explode.

I have done everything I was told to do, everything I done because you wanted me to. I gave up my life just to sleep alone at night waiting for you to make everything alright. My life went from a "I can do this again tonight", to always being a battle and endless fight.

I hid around corners, in the back seat of that old truck of yours, but yet it was not enough, I guess I was not tough enough. I wish I could delete you out of my heart and be happy that we are apart. To me you are worth so much more, never to be deleted and thrown to the floor. Never did I believe you would turn to that whore, I guess I was not enough and you really did need so much more.

I hate these tears that fall from my eyes, I despise me for falling for so many of your lies. I wish you could see what you have done to me, maybe then you would realize it was not all fun and games to me to play. My heart was ripped out of my chest, to lie in the palm of your hands. I thought it was safe there, never to realize it was only to be broken.

Never have and will I ever stop loving you even after all the torment you have put me through. The joke is on me for trusting you enough to really feel. I never cared for the hidden moments we had to share, I was just happy because once again you was by my side and there. I still think about the looks you gave me that day, listening to the water as it played.

So many words we were to scared to say but in our glances they were heard a mile away. A pacing of hearts as we embraced, missing the feeling of so many things. Our love should not be torn apart, you should be as strong as you told me to be, waiting for the time you would show up free. How long will you be to scared to live the unknown, feeling like you need to live a life of comfort even though you always felt so alone?

I will never stop my fight, to be with the one who knows together we are right. You told me more than once we are to each other " the one ". You are my best friend and true love, the same as you said I was. These tears that fall from my eyes are from missing you, even if everything was only lies.