Seasons change

Made a decision, this life
no longer was worth living.

Took a few things, drank
a lot of booze, so confused.

Listening to music, kind of
amused at my life of abuse.

Sent here just to be tormented,
no wonder I don't want to be in it.

Passed out, thought finally I can
be done and out, for sure this time
with no doubt.

Once again not even in that could
I win, the devil won't even be my
friend.

Woke up feeling like hell, still here
I am against my will.

Went through my day like nothing
happened, feeling more discouraged
than ever.

Guess I will take it for another day,
until the time I can win this game of
pain.