Unspoken words

My mind weighs heavily with unspoken words, like
bricks that hold you down never to turn loose of
your body.

So many words spoken with no meaning, just wanting
for once to hear something that is said with feelings
and wanting.

The devil knocks on your door with so many stories,
never to hear explanations leaves me with an endless
worry.

Putting a smile on my face can only go on for so long,
always wondering what I am to him, leaves me with a
longing.

Never to understand the feelings I hold for him, just
waiting for the words that are always to come, in my
heart you are the one, in my mind I cannot yet move on.

Torn to pieces, crumbled like dry leaves, all I have
ever asked for is a reason to truly believe that this
is more than a mere dream.

Tears to always leave my eyes, with the words I am
always made to disguise. A knot in my throat, feeling
like there is no more hope.

Told to be happy with what I have, never to think that
I just want what the other one has always had, nothing
more but a fighting chance.

I will go along my day as I always do, only thinking
of you. Knowing she has so much more because you
are to scared to cut the strings completely through.

My eyes will cry another tear, as my heart beats in
misery, never to understand the words he is never to
speak.