Numb

I am searching for me but I
am numb and only see you as
your face flashes behind my
eyes, I can still see you as
you hide behind your disguise.

I have come un-done as I try
to see my heart I am faced with
the fears that I have always found,
once again I feel numb.

I drown in my own tears as I scream
out your name, my body feels needless
pain and here I go again, darkness
hides me as I protect myself from
my fears and pain.

You never knew me at all, I never
knew you at all! You hide behind a
cloak, words mis-spoken. Take my
heart with you as you go it can be
the devils token.

Take my soul and let it go into my
own made hell, I have given up never
again to rebel! Never to feel, nothing
has ever been real!

You are the devils warrior taking
all that you can, next time you run
for cover you will find no peace by
my hand! I am black, I am cold, I am
the person you let un-fold.

I will try to wake up one day but for
now in my darkness is where I feel safe!
Wake me up when the light can be seen
again, wake me up when life has more to
share than pain.