Defend or bend

I have to take it slow, my heart
has been used to many times to
just be thrown out into the cold.

I relive demons just when I try
to restart my life, always to throw
me back into the darkness that I
try to hide.

I have to search for me before I let
another in, this is the way my life
has always been.

My life is not one I want to rush, I
cannot be pushed into a corner or I
will hide once again to never be seen.

I will linger here for as long as I
need, live my life searching for my
own dreams.

I am not cruel, I have not always been
so dark,this is just what the men in my
life have taught me.I am always on alert,
always ready to defend my heart until the
end,,