enraged

I am intoxicating enraged
right now,my nerves are
frazzled as I pace the
house looking for a way
out.

My mind is shattered in a
million pieces,I am tired
of the life that I live! I
am always on the defense
line so it seems,my soul is
always yearning to scream
away it's miseries!

I play dodge ball with my
life,turning to everyone
else wondering what is wrong
and right.I have a heart made
of gold,I see the stories
that are always left untold.

I never judge a book by it's
cover, you can never know what
you will find in between the
pages that you turn over.

Why then do I always feel like
I am on the defense line fighting
a battle that can never be won?
why do I have to feel like a arrow
is always going through my chest?
Sometimes I feel like giving up and
walking away from a life that has
always brought me pain,never to rest.