Blissfully blind

Forfeited is the time
of hands within the
eyes of blinded man.
Seen all but not enough
through the doorway
of hell.

Left alone dreams
scurry under stilled
feet. Out to dry is
the common cry
when heard upon
ears of a lonesome
pleads.

Been there,done that
means nothing when
placed by the grace
of a presence shared
eternally.

Belonging never an
obstacle,fright plays
a devilish game when
spotted through shaking
hands.

Dept's to never be
paid in full when
thought through the
mind of a fool in
self blame escapade.

Sit and watch as
the time goes by,
never to feel the
perfection of a
soul to soar and
rise.Another drink
past quivering
lips prove all is
not in the name
of heartfelt bliss.

Whispering heartbeats

Midnight whispers
words of freedom
among the thoughts
of wishful dreams.

Provoked feelings
falter when graced
with hidden alibis
of lost time.

Left creases from
folded knees find
traces of silky kisses
gracefully searching
tingling spine.

Fire sets deepest
emotion alive with
endearing movements
of bodies.

Smoldered lips
find comfort when
connected with
the heartbeat of
another's.

Eye contact calms
each other as minds
ponder futures to
come upon the
wings of forever's
love song.

Slice of reality

Tunneled in my own
torments of hell
with no release.

Confused and dazed
by thoughts that I
find no escape.

Tricks of doubt
tickle what has
always been an
sureness.

Love him completely
but can no longer
take what little
is only ever handed.

Want what I know
fills my heart and
soul,tired of just
having that when we
lose all control.

Ready to find the
future that always
stands behind bars
teasingly saying
just maybe.

Taking just another
slice out of reality
waiting for my true
love to finally see
we are always meant
to be.

Yesterdays lullaby

I cried last night for you
as I have so often done
time and time again. I
thought of our lovemaking
wrapped in each others
arms where safety has
always been found and
realized that just a little
in my memory my love
has finally dwindled to
an degree of uncertainty.

Steadfast I have held
You to my heart for
Years now gone by.
Never in my mind was
I to believe that goodbye
would be easily told to
my better half,for some
reason I feel it now.

I cried for what we have
together,the secrets
we so feverishly love
to share.Dreams of
days yet to come our
way but yet I feel the
ending slowly making
way to my heart.

I find our friendship
has blossomed to
it's fullest like it
has never been before,
we laugh freely at
each other like
children at play.
silly jokes are told
all hours of the night,
hardships are felt
in our plight.

I cried last night for
what I am losing, this
time by my own mind
of confusion. I feel
you where you have
always been, in my
heart and soul and
my very best friend.

I wonder why the tears
are now falling when
things seen so perfectly
different, wonderment
fills my thoughts of what
it could be. Maybe We are
like a game in overtime,
maybe there has just
been to much pain and
I am now to fall blind.

I cried last night in
thoughts of us, left
apart from my heart
I thrash. I want what
you keep at arms
length but not as
I done in other games.

I am prepared to lose
as always,but not
expecting the same
pain. It is apparent
now that the choice
is heavily left upon
your shoulders for
I have grown weary
but with a strength
of sureness.

You want what you
believe will not work,
soon enough though
it will not be your choice
anymore. I have loved
you half of my lifetime,
cried tears for what
you leave so easily
behind.

I am now living in my
mind of moving on,I
wish for you to place
all bets now or leave
well enough alone. Best
friends no matter what
choices are made but with
only friendship other
tokens are to leave
the board of games.

I cried last night for
what I have always
begged, soon enough
my tears will dry to
never be spilled again.
My soulmate is so very
near,it is time to make
our lives what they shall
always be.

Traces of acceptance

It is apparent that
the stars and moon
believes in everlasting
love and hope.Tears
dry abroad the shoulders
of right and truth.

Walking hand in hand
in minds peace,flesh
apart but for memories.
Feeling the pain of
another in silent words
of acceptance and release.

Wounds to heal torn and
shattered traces of lost
time spent fighting inner
demons at play.Angels grace
found among the fallen
wings of nothing-less
perfections.

Sparks of fire burning
the soul until love can
gracefully tread where
belonged from the beginning.
Fears put on hold with
just the fraction of
moments spared.

Smile to tickle the lips
of the lost,with the
found.Light footsteps
taken when the do not
enter sign has been
pushed aside.Love to
find no boundaries
when felt through
and through.

Traces of breaking
found when the mind
can no longer deny
what is always there.
What hides behind the
fallen tears that
invisibly trickle
down the cheeks of
those in despair.

The arms of heaven

My thoughts stray to
the one in which I
belong.I wait for
the stars to link
themselves together
becoming the full
they have always
meant to be,patently.

My dreams are of
a past love full
of un-kept promises
that no other can
fulfill,two likes
coming together
as a completed one.

I search my memory
looking for that missing
piece that tells the
tail of what more was
needed even when told
I was perfectly right.

I feel within my own
mind things are never
as they seem.I feel
what no other could
ever find,his hidden
mind only I can find.

I would walk the shoes
of what another blindly
refuses to wear.Sing
the song of knowing and
feeling what is always
to be unspoken with the
unaware.

Forever only starts
when the doors open
freely to what all
wants but blatantly
is to scared to follow
through with.Wants can
only happen when both
sides are prepared to
do their part in love
and war.

The turning back of
time will never come
to pass,only can a new
future be rewarded in
the hands of fate.I
hold no bars in lost
time of regrets.I am
not the missing link
seen through the stars.

I would happily walk
the shoes of the un-worn.
I am to sit home and
mourn the life not given
when it is obvious I
am the one who wants
to sleep in the arms
of heaven.

A thousand deaths

I find myself suffering
a thousand deaths that
so easily faces me once
again everyday that words
are not replaced by the
pen of an angels lips.

We tell stories that only
we can understand,missing
words found easily that
never need mentioned.Proper
just in the heart and soul
of the lost and remembered.

My thoughts swept away with
your memory!My mind a haven
for the feelings of a once
perfect feeling of combined
bodies and souls.Hearts never
left in the dark as they knew
the others inside and out.

In blissful harmony we danced
to lost loves and what could
of been with another but yet
safely in each others arms we
could ponder for we had no
rules to abide by and a better
understanding of what life at
one time held for us in our
broken hearts of loss.

I am spellbound to live in
this place that I know will
only bring unneeded heartbreak
as it always has but here I
am to stay forever lost in
your beautiful memory taking
chances that I know is no use
because fear riddles the mind
of the confused.

Songs of yesterday play loudly
within the crevices of my mind.
I fear and I want to run but
there is no head start when
you are left to tare away the
biggest part of your heart.I
stand still and find my strength
as life yet gives me another
dagger through my heart but
the seepage of lost feelings
bare no holds when life in you
is all the gives me a whole.

It is not fair and it is not
right to stray my mind back
into those unforgettable nights
but in your memory I am to never
win.The only thing that keeps
me breathing is the thought of
never with you being.

Masquerades

Masquerades of fallen
faces prance the room
of make believe.Slow
wanderer in and out of
the circles looking and
seeking the perfect
mask that soon vanishes
behind the person who
wishes to be seen.

Soulful imperfections
of what is to be found
underneath is shockingly
nothing less than intoxicating
beauty just as they are.
Hoops to jump have lowered
their standards and easily
understood and crossed
with just a breathtaking
moment of surprise and
wanting.

Reformed to be all that
is wanted and never caring
of what may be expected
or returned.Just two
beings left to yearn,
understanding life and
all the lessons soon to
be learned throughout
lost days of depression.

Mysterious reflections
search for shadows where
none hides for just a
lovely fraction of what
we so deem to call life.
Heaven so easily to see
and feel in the arms of
securities long ago
devoured upon the crossings
of tormented bridges
frowned upon.

Blessings of the mask
are created to cover
untruths that I wish
to hold as my own until
revived by the life that
one day may hold and
command my throne of
insecurities,which I so
desperately wish to
sink in the ocean of
new beginnings.

Forcefully I am for
now to swallow the
sour scent of living
without a soul to
carve into another's
as I breathe in my
hopeless happiness.
I work toward my own
failures,finding
myself lost in a
room full of masquerade.

Teasingly I search
for the mask that
one day will complete
me!

Burnt bridges

Walking the shadow of
misunderstanding's
alone I suffer a
million words of
hopeless tomorrows.

I find I am lost
in between a dark
shadow of tormented
feelings and knowing
what I really need.

I cannot love and
be lost at the very
same time.I can burn
the bridges and sweep
away the ash but yet
I am always willing
to take the long way
and make the climb
that will get me to
the other side.

Heart flutters at
the mere thought of
such passion and truth
that at one time I
found,I look down at
shuffling feet and
wish to make the step
that may be the death
of me.

I twirl the ring on
my finger with restless
thoughts of lost.I twirl
it around and around
wondering is this my
final stop.Do I leap
or do I or give it back
to he?

Convinced I am doing
what needs to be done
my stomach knots up
telling me to run.
Steadfast are my feet,
my shuffle is one only
I can see!

My heart does not any
longer belong to me,it
has not for what seems
like an eternity.Why
do I keep a ring upon
my finger when I know
I wish it to belong to
another?

Burn the bridge and
move forward,keeping
rope beside me for one
day I will find the
strength to make the
climb that all knows
only belongs to me!

The hidden me

It is the starlit glow
of the night that gives
me peace and time to
reflect on the past
that today will be
once again in lost
memories.I search
for the sun once again,
this time in hopes of
real peace and open
mindedness.

Searching for the
perfect touch to
my being, searching
for the strength
of lost arms I am
consumed with dis-
pleasurable feelings
that come from anyone
else and I have once
again thrown the useless
flesh upon the ground.

I walk over him and
his degrees of what
he believes in his
very own mind.I never
lied when I told him
he would not ever have
all of me so why now
act like he has been
hurt when we all know
it was really just a
ticking time bomb
ready to explode.

I cannot turn off
the timer of lost
things,I said it
from the very beginning
and should not have
to hide from the past
that my heart found
it's best friend.That
will never be found
again,I have said
it more than once
from my mouth and
pen.

In order to find
what lays beneath
you first have to
find the real me!
one you never took
the time to see!
Once again I will
say,there is only
one who took me to
heaven and back and
only he could I ever
really trust him.

Sorry I could not
take you to the
places you wished
to be,you could
of had it all if
you had took the
time to know the
real hidden me!

In the silence of memories

It is in the silence
that I hear my memories
screaming their havoc
their loudest.Telling
me to find my way
back to myself,trying
to turn on the light
that I am bound to
turn right back out.

I have memories of a
once sweet love,reading
upon the screen words
that no other could
ever understand even
up close they still
cannot hear me scream.
I am fed up and I am
done,dreaming the dreams
that only are remembered
of one.

I watch the games that
others play,needless
they do not realize how
lucky they are.One day
they will lose themselves
in their own pot of
shame.Love is to be
spoken in sweet melodies
where no one can hear
the words that belong
to you and only he.

Can you read him?Can
you feel his heart
like it is in the
palm of your hand?Do
you dream of him in
a way that only a
true love can?Are
you full of greed
as you only think
of yourself or do
you really see what
real love is all
about.

I am discourage that
love will ever walk
through my door again
like the one my mind
still always searches
for. I miss the feeling
of completeness as I
have felt before,my
mind falls back into
these thoughtless
opening's of doors.

The sun has risen and
I am made to live another
day of hell without him
but in my mind it is
his love and strength
that I once felt that
strangely keeps me here
living in our once
perfect song of harmony.

I am claustrophobic
in this body I am to
live in!Tired of this
nothing! Blatantly
only I am the one to
always suffer,when
only my heart was
the one playing no
selfish games.Here
I go again trying
to turn off my mind,
why is he always there
to find?

Forever blue

I sit and deny the words
brought to my attention
about my life and love
before now,I argue in my
own defense that I have
grown and moved on away
from the past that stroked
its wounds into my heart
like a knife finding its
way and leaving its mark.

I am ready to find my
way out of the dark,I
am ready to be a part
of the life in which you
wish to give me but
yet you do not believe
the words that from
my mouth are to leave.

I ask myself what could
it be that he sees,why can
he not believe what I am
to tell him.I think of the
drawer in which your
picture lays softly among
the shirt that matches
your eyes the shade of
the sky, I still deny.

I hold him tight and
feel the security that
his being brings me
inside and out but yet
there it is the thought
that he is holding back,
but why? His arms
wrapped tightly around
me but still the tears
fall smoothly down
my cheeks,I need room
to breathe.

I am lost and will never
be found for the person
I once was has been left
astray among memories
that I try to push aside,
but still I deny!

I lay in the bed and
remember everything
through the day that
we have said,the hearts
that we shared and I feel
me wanting to be completely
there but yet I drift away
into my own hiding place.
There I am left to cry
for my younger days.

But yet I deny that what
he says is true,sadly he
is right,I am always to
see you!Forever and
always my mind is to
be tortured among the
past, tonight I am to
sleep again in the shirt
that I should of long
ago thrown in the trash!

Man of my dreams

I remember the long
ago fairy tales of
my yesterday and in
my own reflection I
have come to realize
that the men in our
dreams are nothing
more but figments
of our own imaginations.

I long to dance in
my lovers arms with
just a whisper of his
tender words ringing
in my ears as I feel
the warmth of his
breath on my neck
I am to realize this
is nothing less but
perfect.

I long to be lost in
my lovers thoughts
where no words need to
be spoken but those
of our beating hearts.
A seat by the willow
tree we will take as
our minds wander in
and mingle with our
long lost soul mate.

We can take a walk
hand in hand telling
of our days gone past
never speaking a word
of importance but yet
a thousand un-asked
questions to be answered
and lovingly felt.

The sun has fallen
and we did not even
realize that the time
had so quickly passed
us by because we were
so lost in each others
talking eyes and loving
embraces.

A perfect couple we
could never be for
there is no such
thing but hearts
that are true could
find their way back
into their lovers
grace with one soulful
move.

I do not ask for
much and materials
have never meant
anything to me.Just
a breath from your
heart and a touch
to my cheek is all
that I seek,within
it I see your beauty.

I want something real!

I want something that
most will never find
but in their hidden
mind.I want to silently
speak a million words
that only your heart
can hear.I want to
feel your hands on my
body as they are still
restlessly by your
side wishing for me
to find.

I want that kiss that
tells a thousand tales!
I want that dream that
in our sleep we both
shared!I want that smile
that I feel deep within
my belly giving me
shivers from head to
toe.

I see my prince as
he is finally walking
toward me.I wake up
and realize as always
it had just been a
dream that was never
meant for me!

A woman's worth

I am careful with
the words that I
say,my heart has
to often been taken
out like a toy and
played.

I am a lady to be
loved like a flower
that has just found
spring,I wish nothing
more but to prove
dignity and respect
is what I am made of.

I have played a mans
game one to many times.
Seen all the girls around
me leave happily but
their self esteem cannot
be found once their clothes
are shredded upon the
ground.

I watch them in a corner
acting the part,I wonder
when they decided no love
belongs to be found in
their hearts.A tear in
the night she cries all
alone,she sees now an
empty side to her bed
because he belongs to
another home.

I turn to my side and
see my sweet love,I am
grateful he learned my
mind before my clothes
met the floor where I
would of been left to
cry forever more.

I wander my days in
sweet happy bliss,I
know my love seen my
heart before I gave
in with a tempting
kiss.I am a women of
stature even with what
little I may have,my
dignity will never be
found lying upon the
ground.

A lovers dance

Loving each other
tenderly and slow,
souls talking through
our bodies enjoying
the song of each others
heartbeats that tell
of a romantic hold.

Blossoming love takes
control of the parts
we do not dare to explore
but softly crave to taste.
I can sense your rapture
as your body glistens with
the sweet smell of your
sweat.

You are trying to hold
back the fragrance of
what is meant to be,our
bodies touching and exploring
completely.Do we dare to
take a step closer? Do we
kiss the lips of the other?

A gulf of air we hold in our
lungs as we can no longer
control the need of our bodies
singing the sound of a lovers
embrace as we make passionate
love with just one embrace.

faithful-less

You lied and I believed,
bent down on my knees I
cried my life away with
the broken heart you so
easily deceived.

You couldn't keep your
stories straight,your
heart had no faith in
the person you were
meant to be with until
the end of your days.

Never will you feel the
harmony of the one who
knew you best,many will
forever ponder this in
wonderment.

I no longer play the turns
of a fools game,I laid my
pain out to dry and found
life made of loving arms
that feel without lies and
blame.

I walk now in my own shadow
never to look at the walls
to see who walks in front
or behind me,I have set
myself free!

Unknowingly I still find
myself in you when all
seems lost to me,but my
heart has finally opened
up to set you free to some
Degree.

I patiently wait for the
day that your face is just
a searching memory,I am
waiting for the night that
behind closed lids you are
no longer lying in wait for
me.

I am tremendously waiting
for the time that I stop
searching for the picture
that I no longer want to
find.

Candle light glow

I am inclined to
believe romance
has taken a back
seat to the lives
we all now lead.
Hectic lives have
taken over and shut
the doors to the
romance you see
only now on the
Tv.

No soft melodies
to be heard in the
background,loving
embraces far and
between as now a
slow dance is to
only be dreamt of
in a romantic scene
left behind in our
dreams.

So seriously our
lives are taken
now and we wonder
why broken loves
cry in misery.Hard
to find what was
once a part of life's
harmony.

A love so beautiful
you hold it tightly
to you never letting
it go,in your mind
you try to see the
candle lights glow.
A dance to be lightly
seen in the dreams
you sometimes wish
to live and breathe.

The dancing of souls

My arms tightly embrace
your body of strength
as we dance in a soulful
song of beautiful harmony.

I feel the palm of your
hand as it softly plays
in my hair tickling the
nape of my neck,I shiver
within myself.

Our bodies are slowly
meeting to the tune we
hear in the background
as we melt together in
a sweet loving bliss of
perfection.

Looking deep into the
eyes of the one we love
the song that plays on
the radio soon cannot
be heard through the
beat of our own heart
songs that beat together
as one.

My body loses all tension
as you carry it away in
just one kiss from your
lips that feel velvety
and so sure of themselves.
A lightness takes over
my body as my feet dance
to a new melody of security.

My senses are spellbound
in the tone of your voice,
I am lost too everything
else but your words of
integrity and love.I shiver
once again as I dream of our
bodies entangled in this
blossoming of togetherness
in our own dance of love.

Hearts afire

I turned away,not even thinking
of giving it a chance!Never again
would I be hurt by any man,no way
would I give another a chance.

Slowly giving in,just watching him!
I couldn't help but laugh at what I
seen,he seemed down to earth and I
wondered if this was really him,was
he maybe different?

A comment here and a text there,a
visit from him and I knew my heart
was taken from him so easily.Arms
I never will want to leave,a heart
that I will always dream of belonging
to me.

We swore we were only going to be
friends,our hearts were always hurt
until even they could no longer bend.
A few dates and it was all over,our
love for each other broke down our
walls and took over.

A life full of dreams is on our horizon,
in each others arms our true love has
finally risen.Life so full of each others
loving embraces,another kiss from him
takes my breath away.With him my heart
is no longer a stray!

Perfect pair

I walk in his shadow that
gives me the strength I
need to make it through
my days that can seem so
hard and full of struggles.

He gives me the willpower
I need to see life for what
it really is when I would
rather turn a blind eye to
never see what the world
can really hold for me.

A sweetness in his stroking
touch as his fingers play
silently on my flesh,a soft
word in my ear he puts.

Roaming lips so softy to my
cheek that it sometimes can
not be felt,the meaning of
true love and compassion,in
his arms I melt.

In his eyes I can see the love
I had always wanted to be in!
In his heart I can see me!In
his mind I want to be!A life
full of happiness I live in now,
his love I will always find my
strength in.

My real love has finally been sent
to me!He is the only one I see in
my dreams when I can finally sleep.
Another kiss from his lips,sends me
into an endless bliss of passionate
love.We fit each other like the perfect
pair,in his shadow I will never feel
despair.