The wings of an angel

He has taken his wings
rightfully where they
belong,among his shoulders
he spreads them signing
an angelic song that can
only be sung through the
lips of an angel being
lifted home.

Two weeks seems such a
little time to love
such a sweet life that
had been given from
the heavens above but
his memory will be one
that will not ever be
dismissed or forgotten.
His face through the
clouds will always be
remembered as the child
made from love and comfort.

Leaving tear soaked eyes
and broken hearts behind
his small hand can be
found on his mothers
shoulders as he tries to
give her relief through
this time of grief and
denying.

He knows he will always
be found in his loving
mothers heart until the
day that they shall meet
again in peace and harmony,
in the heavens above he
waits patiently.A kiss
to his mothers face he
now leaves her and finds
his throne in heavens
grace.

Nonchalant ramblings

I am confused and
worn from your ups
and downs.You have
no idea of what life
is really about,you
say things but showing
them brings me nothing
more but extended doubt.

You are in confliction
with yourself,you have
proven over and over
again what you want
for yourself but once
again your mind has
to take ten.

You are in transit on
a never ending road,
you take your demons
out where they should
never roam.You lift
your head to see a half
moon,the full sun is
your everlasting doom
and heartache.You are
left to fake!

Your ramblings make
no sense to me,your
weakness can so easily
be seen through the
strength you try to
deceive me with your
hollow room of grief.

You try to make me be
that one part of your
life that you have forever
searched for to give
you serenity but I have
walked that line of tales
before and cannot be
the girl next door in
hiding.

I walk proud and nonchalant
and hide from no one
including myself.My life
is one you have to take
or throw away because my
spirit has finally out
grown the shell that at
one time covered me!

In a mans thoughts

He sits alone in his own thoughts
of long ago days when he could love
with his whole heart and never worry
about the cost of another heartache.

His mind is tantalized of finding
the right one who can fit in the
crook of his arm to love and fill
him with warmth and trust.

He tries to hide away and act like
he needs no one,hiding the fact that
his life has so many times been left
also in heartbreaking turmoil.

He is a man who has given up the
thought of finding anything more
than what he believes he deserves,
he believes his chances has faded
away like the candle that slowly
loses its flare.

He sits in a room day dreaming to
himself,is this the way his life
will forever be,keeping his heart
upon an un-noticed shelf.

His mind wanders as he drifts to
sleep,will he ever find the one
that he sees in his dreams.

A soldiers walk through life

A little boy watches through the gates at his father
a soldier man , proud as he can be.
He tells of his dads courage to anyone who will listen
and he tells them that one day he will come home,
back with his mom and him
he prays every night for his safety

He never sees that brave man again
his dad had walked through the gates of his own
impending doom
His Mother still cries within the darkness of nightfall,
missing the soldier still today
that her heart had fallen for

He grows into a man himself,
following in his fathers boots prints
he had decided long ago.
He leaves his baby boy behind that gate,
the same he seen at his age.

He walks the path that was set out for
him as bullets fly throughout the nights,
endless days that seem to never be out
of site. Friends falling to the ground,
his strength could not save them this time around.

He dreams of the day he will go home,
to see the family he left and misses so.
A memory of a once great man creeps into his restless mind.
A new found strength he shall carry
as he wakes to the bullets of a new day

Years go by with nothing more than letters from home,
he wonders if his son can still remember the man that he once was.
Carefree and full of play,
how he misses those long ago days.

The day has finally come,
he hears word that they are going home.
Fear rocks his heavily burdened shoulders,
would everyone still be there
would they feel the same as long ago?
Waiting for the return of their soldier man!

He stands at the same gate he has seen his whole life,
remembering the father he had hid his tears from.
He only wished to let him know he could be strong also,
wishing now he had not hid the tears that were to fall.
Hoping he had always knew he was missed by all
not few!

He looks up from his thoughts to see his wife and a little boy
who has grown so much in his time away
Tears shedding from  their eyes
as they seen him walk through the gate that had spoken so many
I miss yous and goodbyes.

Hand in hand they will leave this place,
one last glance backwards to see his fathers smiling face.
A salute from his hand into the air,
his guardian angel,
his strength on those long nights of restless fear
his father,
his father always been near

A life so divine

With every breath I take
and every beat of my heart
I wish nothing more for my
splendid life. Perfect by far!

With every sunset that touches
my eyes, nothing more could I
find. A beautiful life so divine,
a beautifuler life could never
be defined.

My smiles to reach the stars above,
they are higher than the moon I so
love. A shooting star to fall from
the sky, no more wishes to find.

A happiness to take over me, no
more tears do I cry as I drift off to
sleep. Awaken to a perfect sunrise,
one that looks like it was made just
for me and my eyes.

A tear to leave my eyes, a fullness
I can not describe, my heart could
of never been so surprised. It shines
brighter than the sun ever could of.
To truly feel love...

Sweet perfection

Life getting better over time
my heart once again to shine.
My eyes sparkling with diamonds.

My laughter and happiness can
be heard miles aways, just from
the smile on my face.

Stories to be told, laughter and
tears to flow, some memories are
of happier times while others are
from a sadness that keeps you so
very cold, either way needs to be
told.

Connections to share, no words to
be spared. A trust like no other,
I can tell of everything in my life
that has brought me dispair that
so easily you can uncover.

Always to be here for the one who
knows me best, knowing in me his
words he can also entrust. Secrets
to never be, souls to truly see.

Like a kettle on a low fire, to simmer
to perfection. A soul to find such a
sweet connection, trusting only one
with everything. A tear to leave my
eyes, with you I can never hide.

Shuddering memories

I woke with a start this morning,
coldness hits my face reminding
me of a long ago place.

Shimmers of lost memories can
be remembered as I shudder in
all to well known surrender.

My heart starts to pound out of
control, my body shakes with the
chillness it still holds.

My mind takes a new turn, slowly
my body starts to warm.The shaking
goes away, as I remember I am now
safe.

I start the day, with positive things to
say. A smile on my face, as I leave this
place.

Lost soul to be found

A lost soul no where to go
feelings strung out,needing
to feel hope.

Blackness takes hold,never to
see the love that has always
been bestowed upon him.

Grief of past life things that
cannot be changed,wanting to
live for today.

Happiness a mirror away,fear
to make him afraid.Always to be
thinking his life was a mistake.

Doomed he feels was brought on
him,scared of what the day will
bring.

Loving heart to never be understood,
stomped on and left by all that could.
Dreams to be shot down, feelings to
never be found.

Lost soul he will stay,until he sees
with eyes that are no longer afraid.
His heart will be kept safe,by the one
who has always stayed.

Loving the person he will always be,
never to want him to change anything.
His heart is what holds the truth,his
mind is all that stays confused.

Give him all that he needs,his presence
is what she seeks.Never to give up on
him,knowing he is the one for her until
their final end.

Feeling you

As you can see I am still up writing my heart out in misery. Two in the morning and my mind won't let me rest, I am broken down to say the least. I can feel you as you wallow away in all of your miseries, a drink to your lips just to help you sleep. No more laughing in the middle of the night, telling each other together everything would always be alright. You once again have hidden behind your cape, once again to feel like your life has always been one to escape. Never to be who you feel like you are, never to feel like you mean something to our hearts. I can feel you every step of the way, Your heart you have never been able to hide from me. A mind that only I can understand, that is what it means to truly love a man. A soul to be taken for granted, never to understand the man that covers it. A loving heart I can still see, even in all of my misery. I can feel you hiding in the dark, I wish I was there to give you my heart. You know the words I speak are true, because you can feel me as always to. I am waiting for our dreams to come true, they are only worth living if they are with you. I am dreaming of the time to once again be in your arms, loving you for who you are. I love you so sweetly through and oh god how I really miss you. These tears that slowly pour down my face, are ones of missing you in this empty heart and lonesome place. ILU were for our three specail words and in my heart they are still reserved.

Diversity

Diversity in our lives not to be explained, wondering when the end of the world will finally come, Taking away all of our pains. Tear drops not to be heard for they are shed within, bodies that cannot let another anymore see their pain. Passages written in the stars, not understanding what it is we are suppose to see.. Nothing in the sky to us but a beautiful sea of glittering lights. Days pass us by one by one, we let ourselves be hurt by those we love. We come unfolded by the seams wishing we sometimes could be taken by the sea, engulfed by the waves that come in with the tide..wishing for once we did not have to hide the tears in our eyes. Sitting on this lonely road to no where, the rain drops this time can hide my tears. The sound of thunder can be heard in my ears, and for a moment it can hide the sounds of my heartaches and fears. 

Never to be forgotten

They sat high above the groud,
so true and fearlessly proud.
So tall they could almost reach
the beautiful clouds, to be seen
for the first time would leave you
in awe.

A city so strong and proud, coming
to it's knees as they were left to beg
and plead for mercy and peace.

Running in all directions not knowing
where to go, scared of what may happen
next and was this really it. Wondering
if their families were safe from harm, or
were they facing this tragedy afar.

The blue skies are now flaming with
fire, all around in disbelief and dispair.
Even building made so strong, could not
with hold this heat. Even they had been
defeated.

Men and woman alike risking their lives
as they do every day and night. This
battle was one they could not fight.

A city destroyed in a matter of moments,
peoples hopes and dreams ruined as they
fall to the ground. Another plane crashes
into the towers, now all hope of getting to
safety are devoured.

Smoke and fire fill the city, lungs to be left
to suffocate. The brutal smoke cannot be
escaped.

Towers now falling to the ground, pieces of
once great buildings are soon not to be found.

What had started as a beautiful morning, was
now nothing more than dust to be found on
a deadly blackened ground. Firefighters are
tormeneted by all the lives they could not save,
the twin towers now nothing more than burning
graves.

Rubble to be looked at by all, cheered on by
the men who had made our twin towers fall.
A city left with no more hope as they run away
from endless explosions.

A sad story was to be told by the eyes of all
that now lay cold. A city once held so strong
now cries for their families and loved ones
that are gone. Always in their hearts never
to be forgotten....

Tormented soul

Tormented soul stomped to the ground, sent back to Heaven to heal itself again. Lays in wait as it is to scared to leave, going back to earth just to feel humans pain once more. Taking over another body it soon forgets what life it had in it's past. Learning from each life it leads, learning more and more until god grants it's relief. Sent here to grow in knowledge, sent here just to suffer. Sent here just to be tormented, sent here to love and then lose again another friend. Sent here to enjoy another flower as it blooms in splendor, sent here to watch the beautiful snow fall in winter.

Sent here to prove it can live on, sent here to show us we can be strong. The soul is a powerful thing, in the mist of all of our torments the soul has already lived it. Finally learning all that it could it lays in wait for it's loving mate. Released into Heaven never having to live another day in hell again.

Hidden tears of a man

Teardrops fall from his eyes, a wet cheek he covers to hide..He is a man and men never cry, tormented things always on his mind! A soft melody plays in the room, his daydreams start to roam.
He dreams of things he cannot have, at times feeling like his heart can turn to ash. He sits in a darkened room all alone, his heart every second turning to stone. Life has turned it's back on him, feeling as if he has not one friend. Life not giving him a chance to dream, unfulfilled dreams it always seemed! All he wants is a love that truly rings lifting his heart and soul through firing rings. A melody plays in his darkened room as once again tears linger in his eyes, and he tells himself life is nothing but unforgivable lies..

Who's to know the right timing?

Treacherous hearts looking for ones to break!
How many tears can one human cry?
When does the games of fun come to an end?

How many sleepless nights will it take?
To fall asleep not thinking of you a bit!
How many times will I cry out for you?
How many times will you ignore this to?

When do I make the first move out?
Not just one that I regret in the end!
How many times will I beg forgiveness?
Drawing you to our secret meeting place!

When will I know the time is right?
When will I give up on this hopeless fight?
How many times will I hear the same story?
How many times will you tell it?

Time is running out for you and me!
When will you let fate take its place?
How many times can I drift off to sleep,
tears drying on my reddened cheeks?

How will I know when the time is right?
If you are to scared to fight the fight!
Are we to just let things be as they are?
When we die who will regret the most?

I have fought the fight, now its your turn to make it right!

Binding threads

Binding threads keeping small no nonsense things together, Clothing that can be replaced or a quilt that you remember not the name behind the story of the beauty you hold in your hands but yet have cherished and handed down for generations to your loved ones. Binding threads that hold things together means not as much as binding threads that hold the union of friendship and family together, this is something that eludes us as the time goes by and memories of what once was drifts off into the back of our minds not remembering the times we have had and the feelings of wonder that filled our hearts. Binding threads slowly wearing down until there is nothing left but a glimmer of thread that has grown so thin it tears away from the surface leaving all that it held together falling to the earth in a unforgotten heap of lost memories.